not exactly sure why i am so sleepy.
i so wish that work would allow me to sleep at there place. Typing this out.. is kinda a chore today.. most of the time i am able to babble along for a bit. for for what ever... reason this time it feels like a chore.
I guess i get sleepy due to the fact i am not off line much. i spend a lot of my days seeing other peoples art.. and amazing things they are doing. Then i get all messed up trying my best not to be all jelous. i know that is shalow and the easyest way to fix it would be do do stuff. but, i am at work. i can't do much from here. So i watch and i hope.. but for some reason i don't plan. i hope that i will be able to do it.. but i don't plan on doing it.
Hmm if i want to do it.. i need to truly plan for it. but, being tierd or not thinking is very addictive. Hmm i need to plan on expressing what i want and then plaing out how to do it.. then doing it.
should not be that bad.
but, for some reason i make it messy. so many things to hide behind.